“Did I ever tell you I loved you verbally? I might have felt it at a point but I can’t remember professing such to you”
“Did he just say I am not the one?” Seyi reminisced on the things said to her when she saw Kolade after service.
Seyi has been in what we call a ‘situation ship’ with kolade, at least that’s what her eyes has been opened to after years
Don’t you get it? I love him, I have loved him since forever, let me explain if you don’t get it” she told her friend while sitting on the sofa close to the window
I met him in my 300l when all hope was lost in my academics, our meeting still looks like nollywood to me when I recall how I was seated in a classroom trying to read for exams but I wasn’t even getting it, so I stepped out to stroll around and cry like I like to do, that’s when he came to me.
We spoke at length, then I noticed his face was familiar until he told me we attended the same fellowship,of course it’s a big church.
We grew so close that we would talk on and on, we would pray together on several issues I had from home, surprisingly, it didn’t take him time to also be free with me.
In our final year, even tho it’s been just one year, he shared all his plans with me but maybe I didn’t really notice I wasn’t included, I was just glad someone had shared his plans with me, while I had no plan to share or was even asked. How come I’m just been opened to realise that?
She wiped her face as she tried to get air from the opened window.
As I was saying, I started to grow deeply in love with him, who wouldn’t? I started to notice just before graduation that he had started to drift away from conversations with me, he was no longer interested.
Oh, did I tell you? I saw visions, I had dreams for occurrences in his family and I will jump up at night to really pray it off. Was it not a sign enough to be in love or think that could be him?
Ah! My friend, I met all his three brothers when we went for a program and he introduced me as a friend to them, my heart fluttered.
But, come to think of it, it’s true friend, it’s true, I was living in my own fantasy, he didn’t really talk about love or anything to me, he didnt, Seyi subbed again. He could have noticed too, he could have seen my love.
Just before you start blaming Seyi, are some of us not like Kolade to Jesus?
You should have noticed his love, have you seen the love of Christ for you?
It’s the festive period, the mood of Christmas, celebrating Christ, celebrating God’s love for mankind in giving us his only beloved child.
I bring it to you in another way that Christ is like Seyi in the story, he has been with you, being friend, trying for you to see his undying love for you.
Like story, you might even see visions and yet you have not experienced the love of God in cleansing the old ways away.
When will you reciprocate Christ’s love? He is longing for your relationship with him. He wants you to love him and love his work .
Christ loves but mostly not loved back. How sad!
You know it’s humanly painful to love someone and not be loved back, giving sacrifices that are not returned. That’s how it is with Jesus, he is pained over you running away from his love.
Put yourself in Christ’s shoes, don’t delay in accepting his love. He wants you to involve him in your plans just like he involves you in his Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Dear believer, he thinks about you, do you think about him, his burden for the world, his pains over dying unbelieving souls, his love for mankind and how he wants it to be shared abroad, his likes and dislikes in your personal walk with God?
I wish you a Merry Christmas thinking about Christ and a happy new year in advance.
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