I got pregnant in the year….
I wanted to abort my baby
Wait a bit, don’t get confused. Let me define pregnancy, lol
-Carrying developing offspring within the body
-Having numerous possibilities.
Let’s go with the second meaning. Abortion simply means an early termination of a mission.
Did I startle you earlier? Don’t be.
Some months back, I started to develop a desire towards flyer making and photography(editing). I gradually started to invest my time to practice and learn more. I did some minor works that made most of my friends to send their pictures for editing even though they didn’t pay me…lol.
A lot congratulated me and one person called it “my baby”. It actually dawned on me that business I was trying to embark on was a baby.
As the days went by, just as I said that my friends encouraged me at least a good number of them, some just saw it and passed.
I easily give up a lot especially when I’m not getting a thumbs up from some special people. Let’s even leave the special people.
One day, a friend sent in a picture for me to edit. I sent it back when I was through. Shoot! I didn’t get a thank you, I wasn’t even looking for thank you, but to top it, there was barely any acknowledgement that it was seen or even liked. It weakened me.
I asked if the picture was not liked and the reply was it’s not what was wanted. I humbly asked what the person wanted and went on YouTube to learn more. Still, it wasn’t appreciated.
Other times, when I post my work in progress, some are quick to just point out the bad in it and not say “you are doing well, see this and improve “.
As much as we are told not to depend on people’s opinion, subconsciously we do. We are humans, let’s not deceive ourselves.
In another scene, I made a flyer for a friend too which I wasn’t paid for that cost me an amount of money. If it was used, I could have been satisfied but no, it wasn’t. I voiced out though but another excuse came forth. Hahaha
Well, I won’t lie to you that I didn’t feel like giving up. I wanted to abort my babies. ‘Maybe it wasn’t for me after all? Maybe I’m not the business type?’
Let’s stop here for the experiences I’ve had.
Truth is, in life, among your circle of friends, some will publicly celebrate and support you. Some will privately, others in their heart and prayers( God opened my eye to this) and just few at all might not care.
Happily I can say, if I had stopped, I won’t earn money from subsequent work I still got. Yipeee!!!
Don’t wait for a strong validation before you deliver what’s been deposited in you and don’t you dare abort the new baby because you feel you don’t have all it takes to take care of it or even support.
But friends we could do better. In the social world, I have noticed how celebrities put out their colleagues work and so much support especially in the entertainment industry.
If a friend tells a friend about your work, you build network and the world will be a better place. Much more than the money, you have peace of mind.
If you wait to be accepted by all, you deny the outside world your impacts and yourself the joy of the the impact.
Whatever is your baby, feed it will all positivity and let it grow day by day. You shall eat the fruit of your labour soon.
I almost had an abortion but thank God I’m growing my baby well with God on my side.
At the same time, when you are applauded, be opened to criticism so you can grow. Don’t feel offended by a negative comment. Brace up and counteract it by your positive mind to being better.
Don’t give up just yet.