My friend has constantly been singing a particular song for months that has practically entered my mouth too.
‘I’m not going in cycles’ I really don’t have the full lyrics nor the singer but the song has been like the questions I’ve asked God a couple of times and occasionally, I have asked some friends why?
Recently, I just find myself hovering round the situations I’ve faced just years back. Issues happen and the words are alike, the actions of the others are alike, what of mine?
I didn’t get answers to this until later I asked the right question. I wish I can explicitly explain the situations but for privacy sake, I can’t .
Maybe you can picture this; the issues you tried to resolve from the past, comes up again through your new friends and you are put in the same situation. My own fear was losing all over again cos I didn’t do things right then. Oh! I wish I did.
I kept asking ‘why do I have to go in cycles? Should I just forgo this set of friends too?’ I personally don’t like anything that stresses me, so I can quickly drop out of things that doesn’t give me peace, but I don’t think that’s the plan of God. He sometimes wants us to be in a situation where we see him as our Peace, can trust him through it and we still stand strong there and not chicken out especially if He brought us there.
I started the right question as it came. ‘Lord, what have I not learnt from what happened years back that keeps coming up?’
The God of the future who sees the more hurdles you have to cross either in your marriage which He opens up to you through your friendships now, your career, which He opens up to you through your recent job. If you don’t pass a class, you might not be allowed to move to the next.
In evert recent situation, God wants to teach us something, so when we come across something similar but bigger, we have an insight.
I got my answers quite alright and it was wowing. I did something differently, I didn’t lose anyone. Instead, I gained another, exuded peace and love.
I wanted to do like before or just say ‘I’ve seen it before, it doesn’t move me’ like dreams, when we have bad ones, we don’t let it happen, we pray against it. Even if it seems it still wants to come to pass, we don’t say we have seen it before but we keep praying against it. So should going in cycles be. Don’t let negativity win.
I did a different thing as I let God do the talking I would have done which would have made things worse, the kind of talk He gave me to write was totally different that minute and someone needed it just in time.
‘Let your speech be always seasoned with grace’ is not an uncommon verse of the Scripture, but it opened me up to say and do the right thing.
I am not going in cycles anymore, I am moving forward to the next hurdle into the next assignment for a greater glory.